February 08, 2013
Yesterday was a very long but quite productive workday and study day. In fact, this week has been incredibly long, although splendidly productive.
With that said, I realized that I needed to attend a meeting of Alcoholics Anonymous ("AA") as I have practically had no true interactions with people this week.
Although the intellectual aspect of my life, with regard to work and study for the bar examination, is constantly in motion and beautifully so, the inside of my head began to feel like that Matchbox 20 song, Unwell, or even the film, A Beautiful Mind, i.e., get to an AA meeting!
So, because I have sober feet, as they say in AA, my mind followed them to an AA meeting, only to get there to realize that I was in the wrong place, or so I thought!
I arrived about five minutes early, and as I looked around the room, I thought I am nothing like these people, despite seeing a few familiar faces, particularly faces that I was not overjoyed to see.
Then there were the conversations I was overhearing……two guys were discussing plans for hypothetical and premature funerals for themselves despite the fact that they perfectly healthy, while others were talking graphically about "something."
The speaker, let's just say was quite androgynous, with an Eastern European gypsy edge.
To make a long story short, despite all the obvious differences, I learned something from the speaker, because I stayed. Isn't that what it's all about?
By looking for the similarities we find the solution to our particular problems.
For me, I learned that despite how unorthodox and overt the speaker was, the speaker was genuine, even in this world that demands conformity.
Even more, the speaker learned to be that way, sincere, by working the twelve steps of Alcoholics Anonymous.
It was a full circle moment for me, for I was willing, and as a result, I learned something very significant…..that I too can be myself, even in the face of tremendous conformity.
My part was that, initially at least, I was judgmental and intolerant of the differences, perhaps even dis-ingenuine now that I think about it.
God, help me to be more tolerant and accepting, not to mention more sincere and genuine.
"A lot of time I wasted wishing I could be the opposite of everything my mirror showed me. But then one day I realized the only thing to do was try to be a better me and not another you."
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