February 05, 2013
Before work this morning, I spoke at an Alcoholic's Anonymous ("AA") meeting. Although I wake up very early, the AA meeting was at 7:30 am.
To say the least I got there just as the meeting was about to start, with just one minute to spare.
To be honest, I was asked yesterday, and just as I was taught, I put AA first despite the fact that I work full-time and I am studying for the California Bar Exam (this is 3 weeks away) full-time. Service is not always meant to be convenient.
Meanwhile, as I was in a rush to get to the meeting I did not have the opportunity to eat.
On top of being in a rush and not being able to eat, I did not sleep a lot last night, as I have been studying so much.
Although I looked otherwise on the outside, I was not necessarily a vision for you on the inside.
Yet, I pushed through, and was determined to share my experience strength and hope.
It was during my qualification that I had to literally practice step 1, namely that I am powerless (over people, places and things).
As I was sharing, I mentioned that I was a homosexual as it is apart of my story. Well, a guy from the audience chimed in,"…..Clearly", very loudly. I was aghast, so much so that I turned in his direction, and paused. Rather than respond in kind, I realized that I was powerless over people, places and things.
Besides, I cannot allow myself to be moved by barbaric, uncivilized actions of others. What other people do or think is none of my business.
My part as small as it was, was caring, initially at least, what another person thought of me. As I mentioned above I am powerless over other people, not to mention their perceptions of me.
God, help me to not care so much what other people do or think. I am me, and I am perfect as I am. Amen.
"Mind over matter, and limitations shatter."
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