December 3, 2012
Yesterday I faced a situation in which a person that I met in the rooms of Alcoholics Anonymous made an attempt to apologize to me for the way that he treated me not too long go.
We were platonic friends, or so I thought, until the situation occurred.
To make a long story short the way that he treated me hurt me quite a bit and left me not only frustrated, but confused.
Nevertheless, I learned a lot about my typical behavioral patterns with people.
That one single situation illuminated so much and provided so much clarity. It was a living, real life fourth step.
Typically, I am very open and receptive to people. I have even been described as naïve and far too welcoming, too quickly……that doe-eyed deer that gets caught hit by the vehicle because he leaps before looking.
If I did not understand what they meant before, subsequent to what occurred with this guy in Alcoholics Anonymous I learned my lesson.
I learned to be more discerning and to set appropriate boundaries.
The fact of the matter is that although I forgive him, and would like to imagine that I could become friends with him again, I am not Mother Theresa.
We cannot be friends. Although we are both addicts, we are two different people. Our characters do not align.
I have to embrace how I feel, and I feel uneasy about becoming friends with him again. I am trying to move past it but it takes time I suppose.
I will have compassion for myself and give myself the necessary time to feel what I feel and eventually let it pass.
With that said, I still consider him my fellow. We are both members of Alcoholics Anonymous and both welcome. Both of us have the fatal disease of alcoholism. We have that in common and I suppose that is all that matters.
God, divorce me from resentment. Help me to get over the frustration as swiftly as possible.
As well, help me to see the situation with clarity and eyes wide open.
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