Maintain Daily Sobriety With A Daily Tenth Step

Written by DeShawn McQueen on Thursday, 17 January 2013. Posted in Ten Step

January 17, 2013

A couple of days ago I dealt with a frustrating situation that reminded me that I am definitely an alcoholic. From time to time, particularly as things are going so well and perhaps due to the fact that I am more than three years removed from my active addiction to prescription pills.

With that said, as mentioned above I dealt with a frustrating situation a few days ago by way of a phone call. I was informed that my bar examination application was not only incomplete, on the final day of the deadline nonetheless, but as a result I would have to pay an additional $250.00 to sit for the February 2013 California Bar Examination.

I was confused, as I completed the application by the timely filing deadline in November 2012 and even hand delivered it.

Nevertheless, four numbers (National Conference of Bar Examiners Number) were missing. I was aghast!

Two hundred and fifty dollars could have been otherwise spent on four massages, or a decent pair of denim jeans, or for that matter, this clever looking cardigan I have had my eye on, which recently went on sale.

I was so livid that I asked to speak to supervisor after supervisor to get the fee waived, and when I realized I was getting no where over the phone, I was half way to the state bar office before I realized that I was engaging in old behavior.

I stopped, realizing how much energy and time I was wasting in fighting a lost cause, and attempting to get my way. I was obsessive. I am not sure about you but that is a symptom of my alcoholism. I was not only obsessive, but self-righteous.

The fact of the matter is that the fee was clearly not fair……..$250.00 is egregious for four missing numbers. Yet, due to the fact that I do a regular tenth step, I immediately saw my part nonetheless.

As mentioned above, rather than engage in old behavior and exert unnecessary energy, I appropriately acquiesced, focused on the matter at hand that my goal is to sit for the February 2013 bar examination that I have studied so diligently for. So, I paid the fee, took care of situation promptly, and although inconvenient, it's over.

My part was that I should have read my application thoroughly; I admit that I did not. I had a habit of being too hyper and even premature in action.

God, divorce me from wasting unnecessary time and energy on what does not matter. Help me to focus and concentrate on the matter at hand. Assist me with being more conscientious, focused, and shrewd.

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About the Author

DeShawn McQueen

DeShawn McQueen

DeShawn McQueen is a staff writer at Recovery Now Newspaper and, an informative newspaper that serves as a resource for persons of all stages of drug and alcohol treatment, by giving them access to relevant and necessary information so that they may live balanced and substance-free lifestyles. DeShawn graduated from Wayne State University with Bachelor of Science degrees in psychology and premedical sciences. He holds a Juris Doctors degree in law from Valparaiso University School of Law. DeShawn’s writing and research has been published in such academic journals as Behavioral Pharmacology and Pharmacology, Biochemistry and Behavior among others. He lives in Los Angeles, California.

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