By Kelly Lynne Harris
So, after just posting an article that I wrote a few years ago “Intervention: Don’t Try this at Home,” I thought it was important that I share my recent story. I am an Interventionist, who recently had a really bad relapse.
I had seven years sober, and was flying all over the country doing interventions, when I realized too late that I had stopped working my own program. I can only speak for myself, but while working in recovery, I confused helping others with helping myself. I stopped going to as many meetings, and stopped working my steps.
By neglecting my program, I ended up staring down a bottle of vodka and a 12 pack of beer daily. Every time I drank, I hated myself. I knew it was wrong and it went against everything I stood for, but I just couldn’t stop. I stopped working and barely left the house.
No matter how many people who cared about me begged, pleaded, rationalized, threatened, etc., I just wouldn’t listen. My own family and friends DID intervene. I taught my family and friends, for years, how to help the addicts and alcoholics in their life. I taught them to set boundaries and use tough love.
I realized, in September, how much life had come full circle. My loved ones used my own words…ON ME! Was I furious? Yes. Humiliated? Oh yes!
Today, I am sober and VERY lucky to be alive. I am here today because of the amazing people in my life, who loved me enough to NOT co-sign my crap for another second. My disease takes me to a very suicidal, dark, dangerous, and sad place. I do not want to die. I know now, that no matter what I do for a living, I can’t ever stop working a program. I simply will not make it.
I love doing interventions, and I truly feel like it is what I was put on this planet to do. I know, in my heart, that I will intervene again when the time is right.
This is a program of rigorous honesty, so I am going to do a weekly column/blog called “Diary of an Interventionist.” I want to share my journey with you.
I know as long as I work a program, work with a sponsor, and go to meetings, I will have a life beyond my wildest imagination!
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