As many of us know, particularly alcoholics and addicts, yesterday was not only the last day of October 2012, it was Halloween, one of the biggest partying days of the year. We all know what goes well with partying……drinking alcohol and consuming drugs [heroin, cocaine, crack, pcp, ecstasy, Oxycontin, and so forth].
For years, Halloween was not only an excuse to party, it was an excuse to drink as much alcohol as I wanted, despite the fact that I had to get up the next day for school. The morning after would always begin the same way, with me pushing snooze on the alarm, because I was so hung-over.
Talk about “incomprehensible demoralization.” Similar to most alcoholics and addicts, while partying intoxicated, I did things I would not otherwise have done clean and sober, and not under the influence of alcohol or prescription pills.
Nevertheless, I did them and the next day I always had to walk the mile of shame. I did it time after time, not making the connection that all the ridiculous things I had ever done were because I was intoxicated or under the influence of prescription pills.
Today, we no longer have to regret our behavior or later cringe at the thought that we said something inappropriate to a friend’s husband, or were overly zealous with proving our point.
To be honest, one more grateful recovering alcoholic is one less intoxicated alcoholic on the road on Halloween.
Yesterday, I went out with a friend to a meeting, dinner, and then to the world famous West Hollywood Halloween Carnival. What was even more interesting than the people dressed up in creative costumes was the sheer number of people who were clearly intoxicated. I have never seen so many intoxicated people at one time.
To be honest, we left the carnival before 9:00 pm, so all the people that we saw were intoxicated before 9:00pm. I left thinking, “I am so glad that is no longer me.” I cannot imagine living that way today.
By the grace of God I found the rooms of Alcoholics Anonymous and I am so lucky that I was clean and sober to recognize that I no longer want that life.
I get to experience all the fun of life, clean and sober, and wake up the next day without a hangover and even get to work on time because I made appropriate decisions the night before.
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