British singer Robbie Williams has long been fairly forthcoming about his past drug and alcohol abuse and his struggles to get sober. Recently, the singer admitted that at the height of his drug use, he went so far as to dabble with heroin use.
Heroin Used as a Last Resort
Williams reportedly only used heroin once, on a night in 1997 when he was very drunk. He told reporters that he turned to heroin after he was unable to procure any cocaine. The singer reported that he did not have a good experience with the drug, saying that it, “made (him) throw up. That particular opiate did not suit (him). Thank God.” This bout with heroin use seems to be one of the last moments that led to Williams seeking help in the form of a recovery program.
Cocaine Use As a Crutch
While William’s heroin use seems to have been a one time circumstance, the singer did, at the height of his drug use, consume cocaine on a regular basis. He has explained that his reason for abusing the drug was often centered around his social anxiety, explaining that often times he does not feel comfortable around groups of people and that even when he is around people he knows well, he does not always know what to say. He often used cocaine as a means of “filling in that gap,” relying on the drug to make him feel more sociable.
The Terrifying Depths of Addiction
At the height of his drug addiction which, in addition to cocaine and the rare heroin abuse also included prescription pills, Williams has said that he was so depressed he didn’t care if he lived or died. This is not at all uncommon in drug addicts, as many people who suffer from addiction also suffer from depression. Individuals who are prone to depression may be at a higher risk for drug addiction, and as a person’s life becomes more and more consumed with addiction, they often feel a sense of hopelessness and low self worth. Addiction can make existing depression seem much more severe, as drug use has a profound effect on a person’s neurological functions. Mood swings and feelings of sadness and despair are very common among users of many different types of drugs.
Williams’ Sobriety Remains Questionable
Although Robbie Williams has identified as for the past 13 years since abstaining from alcohol use, he has expressed a fairly loose definition of sobriety. Williams admits that he continues to use marijuana occasionally, “Just a small amount, purely to relax,” and feels that doing this is not breaking his sobriety, since he believes that the important thing is that he is not drinking alcohol. This stance is somewhat questioned by various members of the recovery community, who generally believe that individuals recovering from addiction should abstain from all mind altering substances, since using them in even small amounts may be a very likely con contributor to relapse. Many individuals around Williams worry that his stance on substance abuse may put him at a high risk to use again, a position that has been somewhat echoed by Williams, who has stated that he may even be open to using drugs again if his daughter, when she gets older, is interested in using: a position that many find troubling. Williams has also stated that he actually wishes he had become sober a little later in life, expressing that he feels he would have liked to have a few more years of use before becoming sober. This statement also makes many people in the recovery community worried about Williams’ sobriety.
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Cindy Nichols is the founder of 411 Intervention, a full-service intervention resource that helps individuals with addiction issues find treatment solutions. You can see an interview with Cindy here on Recovery Now TV.