Learning to navigate through the demands, frustrations, and even anticipated joys often feels like an additional task within itself.
So, each evening I lay my tired body down on my bed, to rest and sleep away the previous demands of the day, I smile and consider the miracle……..I made it through one more day, substance free.
At that moment I thank my Higher Power for my wonderful life. It is beautiful and nothing like I ever expected, but it is rapidly developing, and I first time in my life, I am not resisting.
With that said, it seems to be that the more clean and sober days I gather, the more challenging life becomes, but not in an awful way.
Each day, life gently says to me, you can handle it, you are prepared; it is what it is.
Just step up to the bat, focus and hit a homerun. More often than not, these days, I am hitting homeruns.
My batting average seems to improve in direct proportion to my sobriety.
Challenges no longer frighten me…….that feels so good.
To be honest, when I actively consumed prescription pills, I was so scared and afraid of everything. If I did not avoid something, I delayed it.
If I absolutely had to face it, I focused so much energy on how to make it easier, that I had no energy to actually put toward the actually task.
Sobriety has developed my character so much, that once again, I face things head on, just as they are. I focus on the solution and the task at hand.
As a result, although there still are only 24 hour hours in the day, it is as if I am accomplishing more. I really, somehow, get more done, live a more joyful life, and almost effortlessly complete tasks that once baffled me.
I don’t waste time complaining or gossiping, and I prioritize everything.
Also, I pray a lot. I converse with God throughout the day, and in the evening, I go for a walk alone and talk with God.
Recently, one evening I was walking and talking with God, when I looked up and realized it was the first time that I had recognized the stars in the sky. It was a remarkable moment, almost like an out of body experience.
The reality is that the stars had always been there, but because I was so busy living in my head as child, as an adult too, not to mention dealing with attaining….credentials, money, people, etc, that I missed beautiful moments, like looking at stars in the sky.
People often greet me with, “How are you?” I reply, I cannot complain.
That is the way I feel, no matter what…..I cannot complain. Why? Because I know that no matter how challenging a task that life gives me, I can handle it, because I am clean, sober, and finally have faith in my ability to overcome anything sans alcohol or prescription pills.
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