I am not sure about you, but similar to our Commander-In-Chief, my heart is absolutely broken for the children and adults that lost their lives Friday.
This is the first time I have felt this heavy of a heart since September 11, 2001, and for that matter dealt with it soberly. Even then, my prescription pill addiction was in it's early stages.
A very sensitive person I am concerning myself, but generally stoic and not very empathetic concerning others, as I usually remain in the world inside my head, perhaps even aloof.
However, this massive loss of life at Sandy Hook elementary school in Newtown, Connecticut has dragged me outside of myself like a wild horse.
I feel an overwhelming need to be around my fellows. Consequently, I am en route to a meeting of Alcoholics Anonymous ("AA") to be among other addicts and alcoholics.
With that said, for addicts and alcoholics, is meeting attendance the only way to deal with a tragedy like this? I suspect that it is true.
This tragedy is consuming my mind at the moment, not to mention occupying a huge area of my heart. Sadly, all I want to do is escape this heavy feeling; I suppose that is why I feel like hitting an AA meeting.
Uncomfortable feelings, particularly sadness and anger, are what traditionally drove me to drink alcohol and use prescription pills.
I forgot how overwhelming it is to soberly deal with such a terrible tragedy.
Perhaps what can help right now is focusing on love right now. I know that I love the program of Alcoholics Anonymous and most of my fellows, that's why I need to be with other addicts and alcoholics who understand how I feel.
I will let the collective power of fellows in an AA meeting mitigate my pain.
It is interesting how tragedies like these bring people together, whether for vigils to comfort one another or just to be among others and not remain alone.
Suddenly the resentments that I was feeling before learning of this massacre have slipped away and disappeared.
It is sad, but somehow poignant, that tragedy can put things into perspective.
I impress upon all of you to please let go of your resentments, if not for yourselves, for the lives of those that we lost Friday. Hug someone please!!! Tell someone that you love them!!!!!
God bless us all.
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