Lady Gaga has learned to "cherish" her loneliness after battling depression and drug addiction in her youth, when she claims cocaine became her only friend. According to Toronto Sun, she has been open about her substance abuse issues prior to her rise to fame, but she provided a little more detail in a television talk on "The Conversation With Amanda de Cadenet," admitting that she has had to be able to embrace her own company.
Lady Gaga said, "I have begun to cherish my loneliness. I have since I was around 20 years old…I was very depressed when I was 19 because I decided to pursue music, so I dropped out of school. I would go back to apartment every day and I would just sit there and it was lonely and it was still. It was just my piano and myself. And I had a television that I would leave on all the time to feel like there was someone hanging out with me, and especially during the period when I was doing cocaine, it was like the drug was my friend. I never did it with other people. It's such a terrible way to fill that void, because it just adds to that void, because it's not real."
Lady Gaga managed to pull herself out of both her depression and drug addiction. She realized cocaine was taking her farther and farther from her dreams of making it in the music industry. She said, "I sort of f**king woke woke up one day and was like, 'You're an a**hole. You're not an artist. If you were a real f**king artist, you'd be focused on your music. You wouldn't be spending your money on the white devil.' There's this perception and romanticism around the drug, that it's sexy or that it's so artistic or that your troubled and you're going to make great music, when really, you're just a f**king loser. I just stopped and focused 150 per cent of my energy on happiness."