Cunning, Baffling, Powerful

Written by DeShawn McQueen on Friday, 07 December 2012. Posted in Breaking News, Alcohol

Alcoholism Addiction

As you might be able to imagine, I am referring to the affliction we all know so well, alcoholism, and to be just a bit more thorough, drug addiction.

Most recently, I attended a meeting of Alcoholics Anonymous. Although I love meetings of Alcoholics Anonymous, I have not been surprised by a speaker for quite some time.

With that said, I recently surprised, not to mention ecstatic with joy when I learned who was speaking at a meeting I attended on Sunday.

Although I have not lived a long life, I have experienced a lot, good and bad, so it takes a lot to shock or surprise me.

With nearly three years and six months of sobriety, I have come face to face with celebrities at meetings. I have even sat next to them at meetings, without ever “blinking an eye”…..I mean this is Los Angeles, and celebrity is ubiquitous.

Besides, I have lived here a little more than four years, so I am practically a native.

So, when I came face to face with a woman I have idolized and adored, from afar, ever since I was a little gay boy in Michigan, reading the pages of Vogue and of fashion magazines that this woman has graced the covers of I nearly wept.

Now, I tell you these details not to play up her celebrity, but to emphasize what I am sure you already know, alcoholism and drug addiction excludes no one.

Never in my wildest dreams, and despite the fact that I have seen other beautiful women in the rooms of Alcoholics Anonymous, would I have imagined someone so beautiful/and talented, and has it all could be so broken inside, and plagued by alcoholism/addiction.

That’s not all, not only does she have our “ism”, she has struggled to fit in all her life, as she felt like an outcast, and struggled with depression.

I have no doubt that I truly believed in this disease of alcoholism, but hearing her speak, meeting her and hugging her truly crystalized it for me.

I hope that I do not sound superficial or vapid, but I really internalized that much more as I heard her share her experience, strength and hope.

Even today, she is as beautiful as ever, young, a mother, a wife and incredibly famous, successful, and very much in demand as an actress and model, yet she does not always feel lovable.

For me that says it all…..this disease is truly, cunning, baffling and powerful!!!

If you or someone that you love is struggling with alcoholism or addiction, please call or text us. We can help you.

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About the Author

DeShawn McQueen

DeShawn McQueen

DeShawn McQueen is a staff writer at Recovery Now Newspaper and Recoverynowtv.com, an informative newspaper that serves as a resource for persons of all stages of drug and alcohol treatment, by giving them access to relevant and necessary information so that they may live balanced and substance-free lifestyles. DeShawn graduated from Wayne State University with Bachelor of Science degrees in psychology and premedical sciences. He holds a Juris Doctors degree in law from Valparaiso University School of Law. DeShawn’s writing and research has been published in such academic journals as Behavioral Pharmacology and Pharmacology, Biochemistry and Behavior among others. He lives in Los Angeles, California.

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