Most recently, I attended a meeting of Alcoholics Anonymous. Although I love meetings of Alcoholics Anonymous, I have not been surprised by a speaker for quite some time.
With that said, I recently surprised, not to mention ecstatic with joy when I learned who was speaking at a meeting I attended on Sunday.
Although I have not lived a long life, I have experienced a lot, good and bad, so it takes a lot to shock or surprise me.
With nearly three years and six months of sobriety, I have come face to face with celebrities at meetings. I have even sat next to them at meetings, without ever “blinking an eye”…..I mean this is Los Angeles, and celebrity is ubiquitous.
Besides, I have lived here a little more than four years, so I am practically a native.
So, when I came face to face with a woman I have idolized and adored, from afar, ever since I was a little gay boy in Michigan, reading the pages of Vogue and of fashion magazines that this woman has graced the covers of I nearly wept.
Never in my wildest dreams, and despite the fact that I have seen other beautiful women in the rooms of Alcoholics Anonymous, would I have imagined someone so beautiful/and talented, and has it all could be so broken inside, and plagued by alcoholism/addiction.
That’s not all, not only does she have our “ism”, she has struggled to fit in all her life, as she felt like an outcast, and struggled with depression.
I have no doubt that I truly believed in this disease of alcoholism, but hearing her speak, meeting her and hugging her truly crystalized it for me.
I hope that I do not sound superficial or vapid, but I really internalized that much more as I heard her share her experience, strength and hope.
Even today, she is as beautiful as ever, young, a mother, a wife and incredibly famous, successful, and very much in demand as an actress and model, yet she does not always feel lovable.
For me that says it all…..this disease is truly, cunning, baffling and powerful!!!
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