By Michael Leahy
Although, I wonder are drug addicts more ashamed to post than alcoholics?! My drug of choice was a "legal high" or "research chemical" called Mephedrone.
It was legal and as I was suffering from depression, this legal drug made me sociable, more productive and happier at least briefly.
I was able to perform better in work. My friends saw a big difference in me in a positive way. Everything was better. Or, at least I'd convinced myself all was better.
The fact is that I was a full blown addict, in complete denial, and spending over €3000 a week on this legal drug I thought was helping me.
I started to sell it and with that came more problems although I saw them at the time as benefits. I had money, an endless supply of my drug and people ("users") always wanted me around either for the drugs or the money.
It didn't take long for the legal drug to be made illegal but at that point I did not care. I was addicted to the drug and to the excitement the selling it brought.
Can anyone relate to this story?
I was arrested and almost put in jail.
But I turned my life around. A true friend and my love me in addiction talked me into going into treatment which I did. I've done the right thing everyday for 18 months and I'm not in jail, which is a miracle.
I'm clean & sober. I enjoy my meetings and my aftercare. Rehab was the hardest thing I've ever done but I am a better person than I ever was even before my addiction.
Does this story help anyone?
Just do the right thing as best you can everyday. My life is so much better in recovery."
Thank you Michael, from Ireland, for sharing your experience, strength, and hope! And to answer your question, I do think that a lot of drug addicts think there is a stigma regarding being categorized as a drug addict. I certainly was more hesitant to say I was an addict, as I only ever consumed prescription pills, and I did not want to be associated with illicit drugs. Alcohol, similar to the prescription pills I was legally prescribed and consumed, was legal. Thus, the status of alcoholic seemed more appropriate at the time.
However, today I realize that for the most part it is all the same……prescription drugs, illicit drugs, alcohol - i.e., it was something we were putting into our bodies to fill some void or avoid some painful feelings/emotions. Besides, it is all semantics.
With that being said, I applaud your efforts in remaining sober, and I congratulate you on 1.5 years of remaining clean and sober. Much gratitude for reading RecoveryNowTV
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